Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Dear Friend

written 4/15/13

Dear Friend,

Let me preface this by saying I know it's cheating, and maybe that's not fair, but I don't care about fair, right? I care about just.

Would I be out of line if I said...?

Initially, all I felt was shock and relief. Then uncertainty. Then some sadness. But all that ran its course in a matter of hours, and I adjusted from there without difficulty.

There was a brief angry spell, a really bitter day. Then I resumed feeling light and normal.

Today it's been achy in a friendly way. A strangely wholesome lonesomeness that radiates at the center of my being.

I just realized that it gets worse when I write stories. The temptation to cheat is at its strongest right now. One of my characters is having a moral crisis that I don't know how to handle. I don't know why the institution is so invested in Traveling with a capital T. The names are giving me trouble too.

I'm wearing it on a gold chain. I think it's plain enough that I can wear it virtually all the time. I wonder if the stone would do alright in water? For now I'm taking it off when I shower, just to be on the safe side.

I cheered someone up today. I guess there's not a lot milkshakes, rummy, and Friends can't fix. There was some attempt at reteaching me how to play poker for the forty-seventh time in my life, but it wasn't tremendously successful. I'm sure your poker face is f'cking unparalleled.

I think one of my piercings is infected. Can that happen at this point?

Someone in my newsfeed raved excitedly about being able to find Robot Chicken on Netflix now. I considered deleting him on principle.

I hope you don't take any of this the wrong way. It’s purely platonic.

Sie wissen.



  1. Lieber Freundin,

    Sie wissen genau, wie ich verstehe, was Sie sagen. Ich liebe dich. Ich lerne jetzt nicht kümmern, und geduldig zu sein. Dieser Zeitraum ist genau das, was ich bekommen Recht erforderlich. Ich bin für das, was die Zukunft bringt, begeistert. Du und ich weiß, wir sind nicht in der Lage, einander zu entkommen.


    So yeah. That. XD

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