Saturday, August 13, 2011

Mental Breakdown

I feel like I'm going to throw up. I was just lying in bed, journaling, when I get this text message from my Official Best Friend:

"Oh, yeah, I'll help you with those character names later! And guess what?? I got engaged!"

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Oh my God.

Oh my God.

Oh my GAWD. WHAT?!

My best friend is...is...is...

I was literally speechless for five minutes. Not even the Sagrada Familia hit me that hard. I just laid there and this weird croaking sound kept coming out of my mouth.

What.

What.

What?

Is she insane? Like, certifiably mental? She's been dating Brian for what, two months now? What the fucking hell? {I'm sorry, I never say stuff like that. I'm just typing the way I'm thinking right now.}

I'm happy for her. I really am. I mean, I must be. My best friend is getting married--

OH GODDDDD. MY BEST FRIEND IS GETTING MARRIED?????????

DO YOU GUYS EVEN REALIZE HOW RIDICULOUS AND WRONG AND SCARY THAT SOUNDS? WE ARE SEVENTEEN, GUYS, SEVENTEEN. I thought I had at LEAST a few more years to prepare for this crap!!

No, she's not pregnant. She's just...Ellie. That's it, she's just herself. She's like this. She's...engaged...

I feel like I may vomit.

Then on the other hand...

OMG MY BEST FRIEND IS ENGAGED!! :DDDDDDDD OMG I AM SO HAPPY FOR HER THIS IS INCREDIBLE MY BEST FRIEND IS IN LOVE AND GETTING MARRIED AND OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She asked me to be a bridesmaid!

At her wedding. At my best friend's WEDDING.

Where are they gonna live? She doesn't work, he doesn't work. How is THIS gonna work? She's gonna have KIDS by the time I'm in COLLEGE...is she even gonna GO to college now? Holy shit, what about all the plans she had? What about all the stuff we talked about about, like, NOT BEING RETARDED AND DOING STUFF LIKE THIS?

O_O

I think I need a hug...

~Stephanie

7 comments:

  1. I'm sure getting married won't ruin her plans :)

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  2. Yeah I'm with you on this one Stephanie. Just wondering, is this an engagement with a wedding five years down the road, or is she getting married now? She is young and that was very fast. Those questions at the end are ones they should talk about before getting engaged. Maybe you could ask her. All the same, I hope the best for them because no one deserves a marriage that goes down the tubes.

    (A girl I know just did the same thing. She just graduated high school, and the guy she's engaged to is 30!)

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  3. I find most people at 17 it is more about being engaged than getting married. Most of the marriages never go through. Just be happy for her and don;t worry about her future. After all, it is her life, and you will not be thanked for interfering whether things work out or not. Just be a supportive friend.

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  4. It's not interference to express concern

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  5. You truly sound like a Best Friend.
    It's her choice and her life.
    Just be around whenever she needs you.
    Atm, it's time to be excited and happy for her!

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  6. Hazel: Well, I really think it will, but there's always the bright side. If I could just find it XD

    JW: Thanks XD I still agree with myself too, lol. I'm not clear on the details, but I'm pretty sure this is a within-the-next year kind of engagement :-/ *wince* Your friend's decision seems a little questionable too...but...no, it just does XD I'm sorry.

    Jamie: That is good to know! I sort of hope it falls through... I mean, at least that they decide to wait until they're legal adults or have licenses or jobs or a place to live or FOR GOODNESS SAKE AT LEAST *ONE* OF THOSE THINGS.

    >.>

    *clears throat*

    Excuse me.

    JW: Agreed.

    Psycho: Haha, thanks...? XD I shall try to do those things. *sigh*

    ~Stephanie

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  7. Your reply to Jamie is the most valid I think. Being supportive doesn't mean unquestionably zipping your mouth regardless of what a friend might do. If one friend legitimately thinks the other might be making a mistake, they should speak up, although interfering would be taking it too far. Wanting to get married but having no job or potential place to live is unwise.

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