Korn's self-titled album
the Segway
Kurt Cobain's suicide
the Wonderbra
the Lion King movie
the comet hitting Jupiter
me :3
I'm two decades old today. I'm not a teenager anymore. I'm not completely sure what this means, except that it's probably time for me to learn to swallow pills and work the self check-out at Walmart.
In all seriousness though, I feel like I've grown up a LOT in the past several months. Decisions that I made as recently as November now strike me as blatantly selfish and foolish. My patterns of thinking, my justifications for my actions, my expectations of the future, my understanding of relationships...all that has changed dramatically in the past little while.
I'm ready to leave behind my teens--not in an eye-rolling kind of way, but in a smile-and-nod-of-finality kind of way. I have no regrets. I made some childish decisions, allowed the wrong things to get me down, didn't always try my best at school, and missed some pretty good opportunities--but who hasn't? I am better today than I would be without my mistakes, and that is simultaneously peaceful and exciting.
It's not that I think getting a 2 in front of my age will make me this flawless, mature person; it's just that lately I've been feeling an internal shift that coincides perfectly with my change in age. It makes me smile :)
Today I have regular classes from 9 to 3 {including two tests}, and then I'm homeward bound to celebrate with family and friends!
Wow, y'all. I'm a twenty-something o_o
~Stephanie
Whoot Whoot! Good for you my dear!!
ReplyDeletei remember turning 20 and my dad telling me i was a 'nothing' because i wasn't a teen and i wasn't old enough to drink. HA.
ReplyDeletebut really 20 is just a year of transitions. a year full of adventure and learning to be an adult.
you're off to a good start. happiest of birthdays steph! love you!