I told my best friend, Cassidy, about "my problem."
I don't know what I was expecting. Shock? Horror? Awkwardness? Some distance in the friendship? Not being able to look each other in the eye?
I did tell her over texting. We were already having a serious conversation though, so it wasn't like I was randomly dropping a bomb on things.
I typed it out. It wasn't that long. Maybe two texts.
As I prepared to hit Send, my heart chilled out. It stopped beating so hard. A wave of peace swept over me, and when I sent the text, the gravity of the situation evaporated. I might as well have been telling her that I was going to have chicken for dinner.
Total acceptance. Understanding. Zero judgement.
Nothing about our relationship changed. If anything, our connection is stronger and more open. But there was no shock. No horror. No awkwardness. No distance. No avoidance of eye contact.
Telling her was one of the best decisions I've ever made. I feel less like a fake. I feel...just more real :)
This is what having a best friend is supposed to be like. I've never had a friend like Cassidy in my whole life. I'd go into obnoxious detail about us, but I'm already planning to do that in a whole separate post sometime XD So I'll save it.
But yeah :) Another step in the right direction.
In your face, Satan.