Thursday, March 22, 2012

I Tell Myself It's Liberating

Thanks for joining us, TayTay! :D

Sometimes I get these urges to post stuff that makes me uncomfortable. Like, I'll just be going about my business, and suddenly think:

"Hey, why don't I go through all the terrible poetry I've written and vomit it all over the internet?"

{But don't worry. I legitimately nixed that idea.}

I get ideas that are embarrassing and make me feel naked. Ideas that are personal and make me feel terrified. Ideas that make me think to myself,

You must be a glutton for punishment.

Only then I remember that I'm masochistic and it gets awkward XD

But no, seriously. I don't think posting cringe-worthy material has anything to do with the masochism. I think it's me trying to free myself from inhibitions. It's me wanting to get a hold of myself. It's my way of letting go and embracing the future.

I think writing personal posts is my way of undergoing the metamorphosis that every high-school senior undergoes. We all do it differently, and I think this is my way. Pandora is sort of an online journal for me, where I drag the skeletons out and bury them where they belong.

Sometimes I feel like apologizing to you guys. You feel the dirt from my soul and see the corpses in my closet. YOU must be gluttons for punishment XD Ah well. I justify my ranting by saying, "They can stop reading if they want to."

So yeah. Always feel free to stop reading Pandora. Because I'll probably never start censoring myself XD

~Stephanie

2 comments:

  1. I think the reason Pandora is so good is because of HOW you write and WHAT you write about. Nobody cares about characters in a story if they're perfect and have no struggles. They need to make a journey, come to realizations, admit weaknesses and conquer them. When you write about yourself it's real and the community that reads your posts is a supportive group of friends that want you to succeed. The rest have probably fallen off a while ago. I like you the way you are, don't change :)

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  2. Why would we want to stop reading something so good?
    -catherine
    f-a-i-r-y-l-i-g-h-t-s.blogspot.com

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